Spence and I have started attending Lifepoint Church because we desperately needed a positive influence in our lives, and it has truly been a lesson in humility. To accept the notion that there may be a God is to admit that you alone are powerless. But it is becoming more clear to me that the time Spence and I have been together is a time that we have been blindly walking through life, going through the motions but not really living. We thought we could do it all ourselves but hitting a bottom has made us realize that we are powerless alone.
Lifepoint just wrapped up a series on Crazy Love and last Sunday, this passage was read from 1 Corinthians 13:
Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
When Spence and I were married, this is one of the few passages from the Bible that was read, but yesterday it took on a deeper meaning for me. We are all one with love. If I am patient and kind, I am able to set an example for my boys so that they will grow to be patient and kind men that will show their future partners the same type of love. And if I am able to be more patient and kind with my husband, he will in turn give back to me in the same way, creating a much stronger bond between the two of us.
I have been practicing being more patient, especially with the boys. I have my mother’s temper and it’s sometimes hard not to raise my voice when the boys are being loud or bickering about something. I am not perfect, but last week was much more enjoyable in part because I made an effort to be more patient.
This Sunday after church, we met some friends at River Road park and had a cookout for lunch. We then walked to the pier where the kids did a little fishing. It was very windy so we didn’t catch anything, but it was a lovely afternoon. I realized that I can have all of the ambitions in the world, but my heart is with my family. I am learning that my goal in life may not be to be the best at something or to make the most money with something. My goal in life may be just to make enough money to be able to comfortably enjoy the little things with my family.
